Let go. Let It Come.

The winds that blow and bring you something, are the same that come and take you. About attachment the difficulty of acceptance, changes and losses.

We are beings in constant mutation and this is not always very well accepted by us humans, part of a natural process that makes everything change, transform and transit. Today I decided to share something very particular, but it also says about my own accessions of transition and change and that Tantra helps me a lot to understand the form and the state I am in.

A few days ago, very recently, the year turned, the celebration was different from the other years, we are still in a pandemic, and maybe, I wish, not for a long time. A year that entered differently and took off right from the start with the death of my younger brother, in a very cruel way, who does not know details here.

I was in my city when everything happened and luckily I had an active role in everything and luckier still, I could see that everything I work for many years has somehow worked, at least this time, in this breathtaking experience.

Death is a process that we are bound to face, it is up to the role of life. "Just be alive to die", an old saying would say. I was calm, I was aware, I had insomnia, I was anxious, I had contact with the body that was already lifeless, with the fleeting that can be every moment, all at the same time. I had to take a deep breath in many moments and just accept and let go of what I needed to go, and let what came to my transit come through this whole process. Perceive myself and perceive the other without judging, just feeling. I include here my brother's “choice” with everything that happened and the way he “decided” to leave.

I still feel him around all the time, in dreams, at certain times of the day where I am in full presence, and I am learning to see physical death as a process of rebirth. The body stays, the consciousness goes to another place, but still with access for us. Just be silent and let the thing walk by itself. We have our role, but life also has hers and we need to let her do her job too. Time to time.

True death happens every day, we rehearse while sleeping our own death, or rather, rebirth. Every day we allow our conscience to leave the body and go to places where it is not so easy to access as material involved in daily practices and that sometimes take us over the abyss of autopilot. True death, happens while we are alive, present, as change, dynamism, wanting to learn something about ourselves or something.

A change in consciousness, opinion, body, habit, reference, perception, is a death. A sudden state of mind, of mood, of pleasure is a death. La petite mort in French, also known as "The little death", refers to the refractory period that occurs after orgasm. Everything is based on the aspects of delivery, fluidity. Delivery is the key, and to have delivery, we need presence, flow and acceptance.

The daily practice of the tantric teachings helps you not only to boost your vital energy but also to know how to lead it, and in these hours of death / rebirth it is extremely important to identify yourself with serious internal edges and sabotage processes that do not allow you to fully fluidity in what life appears as a transition resource.

Tantra helps me every day in a vital way in any and all learning and passing processes of life, death and my future rebirth, even though there is still a duality between my emotions and my intellect. I don't stop being afraid and I don't miss what I miss, but I know how to let go even though my heart insists on keeping what is gone.