Boredom is a great start

In deep silence, look inside and watch ...

Notice your enthusiasm for life ...
Realizing that if you are simply bored with yourself, if you want to change your life, adopt new habits and see the world with a clear vision, in a different way, is a great discovery. Very few people realize that they are bored, and they are bored, absolutely bored. Everyone knows and perceives, except themselves. Knowing that you are bored is a great start, but some implications need to be realized. Man is the only animal that feels bored, but that is a great privilege. This is part of the dignity of human beings. Have you ever seen a bored buffalo, a bored donkey? They are not bored!
Boredom simply means that your way of living is wrong - consequently it can become a big event - the realization that "I am bored" and something needs to be done, some transformation is necessary. So don't think that your feeling boredom is bad, it's a good sign, a good start. But don't stop there. Why do we feel bored? We feel very bored because we have lived in dead patterns, patterns given to us by others. Renounce these standards! Get out of those standards! Start living for yourself. Only the authentic person does not feel bored; the fake person, who lives with a mask stuck to his face, necessarily feels bored. Realize ... Our true lives remain repressed and we begin to simulate an unreal life. And it is this unreal life that creates boredom. If you are doing what you were meant to do, you will never be bored.

It is not a question of money, power and prestige: the question is what you, intrinsically, want to do. Do it without regard to the results, and your boredom will disappear. You must be following others' ideas, you must be doing things right. Those are the cornerstones of boredom. The whole of humanity is bored, because the person who wanted to have been a mystic is a mathematician, the person who wanted to have been a mathematician is a politician, the person who wanted to have been a poet is a man of business. Everyone is somewhere else. Nobody is where he should be. We have to take a chance. If you are ready to take the risk, boredom can disappear in a single instant. You are bored because you have not been honest with yourself, you have not been honest with yourself, you have not been respectful of your own being.
And you say: I feel discouraged How can I be discouraged? The mood only flows when you are doing what you want to do, whatever it is.

Vincent Van Gogh was immensely happy simply by painting. Not a single painting has been sold, no one has ever appreciated it; he was starving, he was dying, because his brother was giving him only a small amount of money so that he could at least survive. Four days a week he fasted, and three days a week he ate. He had to fast during those four days, because otherwise, how could he get his canvases, paints and brushes? But he was immensely happy - his energy was flowing. He died at the age of thirty-three. He committed suicide; but his suicide is much better than many so-called lives, because he committed suicide only when he had painted what he wanted to paint. On the day he finished a painting that represented the sunset, which had been his greatest wish, he wrote a letter saying: “My job is done, I am done. I am leaving this world immensely satisfied ”. He committed suicide, but lived totally, burned the candle of life on both sides, simultaneously, with tremendous intensity.

And Osho says: You can live a hundred years, but your life will be just a dry skeleton, a weight, a dead weight. When I say "accept yourself", I am not saying to accept your standard of living - don't get me wrong . When I say "accept yourself", I am saying "reject everything else and accept yourself". But do not interpret this in your own way. Reject everything that has been imposed on you. Accept your innermost being, which you have brought from beyond, so that you will not feel that you are missing out on something. The moment you accept yourself unconditionally, suddenly, an explosion of happiness happens. Your energy begins to flow and life becomes a real ecstasy.

There's still time! Get out of the prison you've been living in until now. It just takes a little courage. And there is nothing to lose, remember. You can just lose your chains; you can lose your boredom, you can lose that constant feeling of something missing. What else can you miss? Get off that path and accept your own being; your responsibility is only to yourself.
Be responsible - and when I use the word “responsible”, please, I am not referring to obligations, responsibilities; I am simply using the word in the literal sense: responding to reality, being responsible. You must be living an irresponsible life, fulfilling all kinds of responsibilities that others expect you to fulfill. What do you have to lose? You are bored - this is a great situation. You are losing enthusiasm for life. What else do you need to get out of prison? Jump out of it, don't look back.
They say: think twice before jumping. I say: jump first and then think as much as you want!