G.'s statement about Tantric massage

Hi, I'm not sure how to start talking about how tantra started to be a part of me, but come on.
I am physically disabled, I spent a good part of my childhood hospitalized to undergo treatments such as physiotherapy, as my family was very humble, they were unable to take me for treatment and the best option was to stay in hospital.
The place is very good, even though SUS, attentive professionals, but the infrastructure at the time was complicated. Young children and teenagers showered together in a giant bathtub and we slept in the same ward. And in this environment organized in a not so organized way, it gave space for certain things to happen that have marked me throughout my life.
Around my 6 years or so, three boys touched me in a non-respectful way, and no matter how much I tried to escape or even threaten to tell someone, I always heard that I was small and weak and that if I spoke everyone would do the same thing, so I shut up.
Sometimes I was able to return home due to constant crying, the social worker and the doctors thought it was better, because it was difficult to work with me under those conditions, but after two or three months I would live it all again. And this lasted for a few months, until those who abused me were discharged, thank God and I had a little peace. Yes, a little, because the marks on the soul have remained and still remain today.
Throughout my life I had to learn to be strong in some moments and pretend to be strong in others, I always had to prove how capable I am, my family supported me my whole life
in order to evolve and be happy, I had the best mother God came to raise and I also have the best father who could dream, even with his human failures. After all who doesn't?
The pain made me learn to love and protect, I always gave myself completely to the people I love, I don't like to see the other's suffering, but I always had difficulties in allowing myself to be cared for, there were few people who let me do this. I always tried to cure myself of my pains alone, until I met Prem Anagari (Untamed Love) or simply Eli if you prefer, rss. A passionate and radiant being, who enlightens everyone around him with his love and a smile that disarms us.
Through tantra she showed me that I must not stop myself from being and feeling, with her way of loving and deep respect she has been teaching me that happiness is in the freedom to love the other. And that was how for the first time in over 30 years I had the courage to tell everything that happened to me and starting a healing process through tantra, I just took the free tantric massage course (sensitive and ioni), I met Yohana, my first Shakti, a beautiful being inside and out, was an indescribable moment where love in a purer and deeper way connected us as a single being.
At every moment lived, every experience felt makes me want to go further, yes, I want to become a tantric therapist, because I want to take this healing love to other people.