Susete's statement about Tantric massage

"- Am I really going to do this?”, “- I must be going crazy.”, “- What will happen?”, “- Does it hurt?”
These were some of my thoughts as I headed for my first tantric massage session. Never in my life had it crossed my mind to do therapy that involved my body and my sexuality. However, after ending an abusive relationship, I developed blocks in relation to my body and my sexuality. After talking to my therapist about my traumas and talking about the importance of knowing our own body, I started to research other types of therapies. The foundation of tantric massage is the ability to influence our emotional states through working with the body. I decided to try it!
I confess that I arrived scared and ashamed. As soon as I walked in I curled up on a sofa, the anxiety intensified. The imminence of being naked in front of a therapist left my mind racing. But Gajanam was super kind and soon reassured me. "- Let's talk a little!", He said. It was a quiet chat about my sexual experiences, my traumas and my doubts about massage and my limits. He explained that in tantric massage, the goal is to make vital energy flow, our centers of consciousness, the chakras. The technique helps more broadly, to deal with your pleasure and your sensations.
After this conversation and answering a questionnaire, I was taken to the “so-called massage” room ... I went on with a package in my stomach and my heart in my hand. Upon entering, I came across a super quiet room, the atmosphere was low light, soft music played on the notebook, on the floor there was a kind of tatami, where the massage is performed. The air was turned on at a pleasant temperature. He passed the directions and left for me to prepare. As soon as I was alone a nervousness hit, I started to take off my clothes, remembering again that I would be without them at the time of the massage. When he returned I was already lying down, he asked me to close my eyes and watch my breathing. "- Focus on your body, not my hands!" He said. I had a little trouble relaxing on the first contact. Slowly I started to relax as I felt his hands gently touch my entire body. The sensation was that of a feather passing through the skin over and over again, causing chills and inexplicable tremors that he performed with his fingertips, almost without touching, the goal is to awaken the body's bioenergy. My fear left and gave way to a sense of trance, as if I was no longer in a tantric massage room, but in a place of my own. Difficult to describe the sensations. In some moments he asked if I was comfortable, I confess that I almost told him to shut up ... kkkkk
I heard when he picked up an object, I already knew from our previous conversation that it would be a small vibrator to stimulate my clitoris. Not knowing exactly what it would be like, I was startled when he came in contact with my skin. '- Relax and let your body show you what it can do!', He said when he noticed my fear. Intensely and continuously, I experienced strong feelings of pleasure, agony, and extreme excitement. The music, which used to be calm, was now faster, with stronger beats. I have never felt anything like this in my life, and I wonder if I will feel out of tantra again. After about an hour, he stopped and lay me down, feeling all the sensations in my body. Spasms of pleasure ran over my skin. A few minutes after I went to get the oil off my body and get dressed.
The experience was wonderful. I started to value self-knowledge and learn more about my body. I think that everyone should, one day, have a tantric massage, to get rid of prejudices and learn a little more about themselves.
If you have the opportunity, know. It's not masturbation. It is not sexual. It is a touch of healing and lovingness that awakens your body energy. And look, you find out you have a lot of energy, see? Kkkkkk