I entered Tantra - This is, perhaps, the most intimate experience I will tell in this space

The first time I heard about Tantra was from a friend from college. I vaguely remember some concepts and how she made sure she could feel pleasure by rubbing her arm with her boyfriend's. In the midst of discovering my sexuality, it seemed pure bullshit.

A decade later, I paid R $ 400 (this is the average price for about 2 hours) to try to find out what Tantra is. It was two weeks ago, months after the idea hit me. On the one hand, I had obvious curiosity, given the comments that it is possible to have 15 orgasms in a row (ok, on the internet, you can read everything). On the other hand, as Tantra presupposes, I tried to resolve some of my blocks when it came to reaching an orgasm. I wanted a new experience, to know my body without having to interact or satisfy someone in return. I was looking for a sex therapist.

Explaining Tantra is no easy task. Over the years, this Hindu philosophy, which regards the body as a means of self-knowledge, has absorbed many teachings that have dissolved a unique definition. In some cases, it was popularized in simple sex sessions, and in others, it was mixed with other disciplines such as Taoism or yoga.

In essence, what I learned and report here to you, is Tantra as a therapy that uses tactile stimuli to enhance the natural energy of our body. This bioenergy is the way to experience new sensations of pleasure that, in addition to orgasms, open a path in our way of perceiving.

In Tantra, we talk about difficult concepts such as “reaching the transcendental state of the union of male and female principles in its propagation to infinity”, but also that it is an experiential philosophy, not contained in books, and unique for each person .

The first step is the challenge of choosing a suitable place and / or therapist. I knew a Tantra center in São Paulo that offered various types of massages, for beginners and advanced. The method is divided into four levels, specific for men and women.

I opted for one that mixes two things. I started with the basic massage, called Sensitive, mixed with Yoni Massage, focused on the genital organ. To choose the one that fits you, the best way is to talk to the person who will assist you (usually a woman in the case of men and a man in the case of women, therefore of polarity).

The center I chose is called Metamorphosis, with therapists spread across the country (Metamorphosis Center). The therapies are based on the Deva Nishok method, which understands Tantra as a way to heal dysfunctions, change sexual patterns and overcome limitations and difficulties in sexuality. Specifically refuses to be interpreted as a masturbatory method (and, let's face it, we already do it at home).

Ufa. It seems too heavy, but simplifying would be unfair. And there I went.

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Paradoxically, this is, perhaps, the most intimate experience I will tell in this space.

For someone who cannot imagine being touched so intimately by a stranger, a massage called sensory is recommended. Simply put, it consists of a caressing session with your fingertips all over your body. It is the door, they say, to your chakras and your bioenergy. It is normal for the muscles to respond to these stimuli with spasms, more or less intense, but it didn't seem like anything out of this world. “A delicious experience that I wouldn't pay for,” I thought straight away.



I recognize, however, that an hour after those touches, my skin would react to a grain of foot, it was so electrified. And it was then that he climbed a step and started a massage on the genital area.

He put on latex gloves. I heard the jar of lubricant being opened. My head clicked. Then he started to massage me from the breasts to the inside of my thighs. The heat of the friction of the gloves against my skin was not exactly exciting, but it was a pleasant sensation that I still try to compare with some other experience. And the possibility of similarities stopped there. All the rest of what I experienced in the next half hour I can't compare to anything.

He started by massaging my big lips, followed by the smaller ones and my clitoris (from where he was born, nothing to do with the well-known external button). The sensation was unique due to the fact that neither I, ever, had touched me that way. It seems difficult to explain, but all that, in my head, was really dissociated from sex. I was feeling pleasure, yes, it was my genitals, yes, but what I mean by sex was not that. He showing me what my body was capable of feeling, how, with what intensity and what it did to me. I was opening a way of communication with him. I had my first orgasm at five minutes.

In half a minute he was moaning again. We were now inside, not forgetting all that outer skin, newly discovered, but focused much deeper. He would put several fingers in my vagina, palpating its sides, until it reached the so-called G-spot. I had already touched and stimulated him millions of times, I was also able to enjoy with a partner, but, again, the non-sexual way he had to touch it was different from what I had already experienced.
In fact, even when we masturbate, we are guided by the movements and rhythms that our sexual experiences have taught us. It is difficult for a man to masturbate without trying to imitate with his fingers what he would like to do with his dick. Not that it doesn't taste good, but being able to forget the patterns and listen to the body today seems like a magic trick. Sex is fabulous, but it involves so many things that sometimes, mechanically, we forget that the nature of the experience is different. That it is about two bodies getting to know each other.

This stimulation was so intense that I was unable to deal with it and was unable to come. I think I found one of my blocks there, the fear of losing control. As if reading my mind, he changed the technique and picked up a vibrator. Tiny, with a remote control. My annoyance disappeared and I opened a door that I don't know if I will be able to close.

Just by feeling the vibration of that device, the spasms started to be much stronger. It ran from the groin to the lips and from the lips to the inside of the vagina, while I started to sweat and to squirm violently. It was ten minutes, I think, when I stood on the edge of a cliff. At times, I approached the compulsion of real life, of mentally crying out for orgasm, for final ecstasy, until he stopped and I understood that it had all been a super orgasm.

I went through something never lived. Then I discovered that this is called a perennial orgasm, with no decline after the climax. In men it also has a name, a dry orgasm, and it can break the standards of any of my friends who think they have nothing to discover about their sexuality. Gentlemen: there is the soft-cock orgasm.

The image that comes closest to what I experienced on Tantra is being swallowed by a wave on a day at rough sea. You stay in this current, breathless, unable to get out and following the sea until it decides to expel you. So, you are grateful to stay alive, even if you still have no breath. In this case, the wave was my body full of pleasure, hijacking my head. It was he who dominated, not my mind, nor my reason, nor my fear of losing control, nor my prejudices, nor the supermarket list. This time it was my body showing me what it was capable of and not the other way around. He behaved like the raging sea.

I fell exhausted like a castaway on the sand.

I leave for the end the report that, during all this experience, I did not stop crying. I acknowledge that it may sound like a joke. But it was not a pity, it was neither pain nor shame. It looks like it's normal, he told me. I cried once in my entire life having an orgasm and felt it released tons of unresolved tensions.

That session of pleasure and tears wiped me out. I felt ashamed for not reacting with the normal groans to that ritual, but I also felt that it was just me.

As I write these lines, I wonder if anyone will think that the Tantra experience is not far from prostitution. In reality, you pay for someone to give you pleasure. And I was the first to warn about such a dilemma. But, I insist, that for me was not sex, it was the key to a greater knowledge than my body and I are capable of feeling.

And the best part: I have faced traffic jams, ugly faces and requests from bosses for days with the slightest memory of that wave of intense pleasure. What I experienced reminds me of what I am capable of feeling, and leads me, immediately, to thank you for being alive.

Ana (Folha de São Paulo - blog "The bed belongs to everyone")

Additional comments, by Deva Nishok:

By way of clarification: There is no single view of Tantra. Anyone who claims that this is not Tantra is unaware of the fact that there are several schools that use the same denomination and concept but that differ from one another in the practical applications of their conceptions. Thus, there is the Tantric vision of Buddhism, Taoism, Yoga and various initiation schools with more or less exposure, such as Mr. Aleister Crowley's troubled school and his so famous Gnosis. Everyone uses the principles of Tantra, with different applications. Even the Buddhist or Taoist View, or Yoga, have different currents constituting significant variations in their practices. In Metamorphosis we do not follow a philosophical line as this deviates from the basic principle of Tantra, of being non-verbal. Tantra cannot be applied through words, it has to be a cognitive experience that opens up to new cognitions, that is, behavior change that is not determined by rational and logical intelligence. In Metamorphosis we apply all the steps for the person to reach a state of "Sahaja", to understand how the energy is conducted. The best way to determine the learning of perception and the mobilization of energy is through the conscious use of sexual energy, activating the kundalini consciously. This is what we train at Metamorfose. Massage is just one of the techniques we use but it is not even the most important, although it is great. These techniques that we use were developed by me to be applied among Metamorphosis students. Basically we use 3 massage techniques: Sensitive, Extase otal and Lingham or Yoni Massage. The techniques used in Metamorphosis are for the exclusive use of professionals who work with Metamorphosis. We are not responsible for other professionals who assist with other modalities including including sexual practices in their care. In Metamorfose there is no sex inserted in the visits. As I said before, our Massage is just a tool for sensory development among other tools as exceptional as massage. We recommend people looking for a development and a cure for their sexual dysfunctions to seek out Metamorphosis professionals, always with the proviso that they should not have a sexual intention. We have on our website several experiences described by press professionals who tried our work, many of them incognito. We are proud to be a reference of credible and safe therapeutic practices in the midst of a market with so many misrepresentations. People who criticize our work are actually ignorant of Tantra and well identified with other views of Tantra, discriminating against us. Our work has helped thousands of people to get rid of serious problems regarding their sexuality. We are not sex professionals as their ill-informed minds believe, we are therapists with a very significant therapeutic process that helps in curing major sexual dysfunctions such as premature ejaculation, sexual impotence, female and male anorgasmias, traumas, vaginismus, sexual pain, among others. We also advise couples who wish to improve the quality of their relationships, looking for ways to increase their pleasure and orgasm. They also wrongly discriminate against those who say that our work is masturbation. masturbation occurs very quickly, with the aim of ejaculating or having orgasms. In our work, we guide the professional to practice the maneuvers that were taught in the courses, of continuous traction, which increase the tone of the sexual tissues and muscles for an hour and a half. No masturbation can reach that point. The reframing of the maneuvers used causes a new quality of orgasm and pleasure to be discovered and it is precisely because it is not masturbation that the person learns and understands that orgasm has many variations and that there is significant beauty when sexual energy is not. used for sexual purposes. The person experiences a feeling of compassion and oceanic love - that's what we call it. An experience overflowing with acceptance that also refreshes our behavior. We at the Metamorfose Center feel gratified whenever a person offers a statement as real as the one that speaks of the seriousness and credibility of our work. We know that a large number of people immature and unprepared to deal with the issue of sexuality take the subject with disdain and with infamous jokes. But that is the price we pay for living in a society that is so discriminating and disdainful of its own maturing needs. We are very grateful to you as a journalist for the fidelity of your information and for showing yourself so completely and openly. As I speak to couples in my courses, don't stop there. Unfortunately we have to charge 400 reais. This is the amount that a wanker would never pay for a “wank” session. The work requires dedication and effort, it takes an hour and a half working on the genitals, in a complicated position, subject to risks of contamination, odors, etc ... I think it is more than fair, the amount we charge and not only that, the person it really goes through conflict resolutions and cures for sexual illnesses. Considering the cost / benefit ratio I think the value is really worth it for its specialization. But this is how I speak to people: Go on, don't stop at this experience, that was the beginning of the introduction of the preface to the preface, and you haven't even read the prolegomena yet ... there's a lot to learn ... Thank you very much!